Monday, March 31, 2008

my routine 1..

uhuk2.. its 0715 in the bright morning.. i woke up this morning coughing like endlessly.. my throat hurt.. and i felt the pressure right up to my cerebellum when i cough hard.. i slept at about 3 last night doing all prep for today class only to my another row of stupidity i forgot that today the form 5 students still have their EXCEL exam. shit. i should have done the prep for form 4 class instead!! urgh.. fortunately i'm wearing new tudung so i cant afford banging my head to the wall.. *sigh* and double fortunately i didnt scold the students for being 15 minutes late which is 37% of the period at the first sight of their confuse faces for being called into the lab.. err... malu jugak.. isk isk.. T______________T today i am wearing the new baju kurung and diamoned tudung i bought at konvo fest in UTM last week. i usually avoid pink but this one has thicker color. ade ke warne2 pekat.. ala.. sort of in between pink and purple.. i always know that im a simple person with simple taste. usually i dont have much trouble styling the tudung cos i usually use the 'klip tudung' (that's what i called). it is something that used to be sooo popular back in 80's or 90's which makcik2 or cikgu cikgi styled their tudung into butterfly-like clip them.. you can find it in clip or ring design. anyway.. that's how i usually style my tudung not the butterfly knot la, just the knot in front of my tudung je..... like ponytail. hehehe.. i feel comfortable that way despite of my sis complains that i look soooo out dated.. and my fren, aishah always 'encourages' me to pin my tudung on both side of my shoulder. she said i look 'nicer' that way (???) so she means....... -___- i do pin like that sometimes!! but i dont feel free to move efficiently. ceewahh.. eh.. why do i rant about my tudung aa? ermm.. oh yes.. today tudung is the new one. with 'diamond'. double ceewah.. hehehe.. i spent about 30 minutes adjusting the position on my shoulder so i dont look funny and i feel comfortable but still i dont feel comfortable. the glittering diamonds make my tudung feel heavy. i feel like they are pulling my head to all direction and then my face expands some more. T_____T i usually go for kerawang instead of diamond but i was so gatal tu buy the diamonded tudung. serves me right. haha.. next time, diamoned or not, i just clip them. easy and convenient. urgh.. my next class will be on 0950. hungry la.. kita minum dulu :)
******
i'm so %&*%&$!!! i dismissed the form 5 students earlier cos they have the EXCEL exam and i carelessly didnt realize that i am the teacher who should distribute the exams paper... (o_O) WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yes.. i got bad cough today. maybe i cough to hard that some of my synapse blocked by the mucus.. the the impulse from my memory box cant reach my brain cells.. hurm.. it must be that.. whatever... duh.. better to continue on my work..
***
i'm home. at last and i feel like my head is almost explode with anger. how cud they leave the kitchen in mess like that????!!! i'm so sensitive when it comes to kitchen. misplacing things is ok. acceptable. but NOT spilling flour, unwashed dishes, oily cabinet.. arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sick of this! nobody at home so i have to do it all by myself. i'm not that lazy to clean the mess. but i hate it so much when i have to clean the mess for other. irresponsible! shit! i'm suppose to be much more relieve when i'm home and rest mentally since i'm so tired playing mental games at school but its the opposite. maybe next time i should stay longer at school so whoever cause the mess take responsibility to their own action. i'm really in a foul mood %@!$*@!@!!!%#@&*! ...

electromotive..

urgh.. i should be sleeping by now if not because of my own fault (or to be exact..my stupidity) i havent yet finished with tomorrow T&L material. darn! shit. i'm so hopeless. i cant even do my best in my own field. i know i can do it and i know very well that i can do mucho mucho better than what i did and am doing right now but i feel like 24hrs a day is NOT enough. no. no.. i'm not blaming the clock for loyally ticking the time and leaves the fools like me wishing the day to pass by and hoping there is a miracle somewhere after the 24th hour that the day is restarted. where do i did wrong? screw the grammar! yes. time management. discipline. urghhhh.. okay.. lets admit that i'm lacking of both. i list all my to-do but because im so 'later la' type of person, my workload piles up like gunung kinabalu. ok. enough. i'm wasting my time mumbling here. i'm not going to sleep until i'm satisfied with my own prep for tomorrow. ...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

i hope today is the worst day in my life cos if there's any other day that is worse than today then i dont think i could take tho blow anymore.. i really hope that i can express my grieve but i i just could not.. i feel so numb.. hoping i could go back to the past but i know even if i could, making a difference is not easy.. One cannot bring back the past or change the what has been Though we ought to learn from what we have done and seen And young people pine for lost love every day For life experience the price some have to pay. One cannot bring back the past or change what happened years ago And in hindsight we realize then we did not know That one door opens when another close But one cannot put an old head on younger shoulders I suppose. Francis Duggan

Sunday, March 16, 2008

school's break ends :(

hurm.. benci.. benci.. i only teach for less than 3 months (i havent even got my first pay) but now i'm starting to feel demotivated. easy to tell others to cheer themselves up but being in the shoes doesnt feel good at all.. urghhh.... what has gotten into me ah? sort of holiday-ends syndrome? if the syndrome ever exist.. I am super lazy!! and with dad is being away on seminar..who is going to drive me to school?? ala........ sis use the other car and there is no way she can send me to school. i just tooooooooo lazy to walk plus with the heavy-weight notebook and books, its torturing enough to burden myself to death. even worse, i havent prepared anything for T&L tomorrow.. plain jane. am i that lazy? welcome to my life. ...

poll closed

ok. yes. i'm chubby.. okay.. emm.. :| :( uwaaaa.... ...

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

i'm tagged!!

i was tagged by lyn about more than a week ago ;) so.. here you are :)

10 things about me that might (not) freak you out (so, please be prepared):

  • i'm a big fan of ramli sarip, ella and amy search but i never bought their album.. i'm their big fan simply because i think their voices are great & the reason of why i never bought their album is because i'm afraid i'll get bored (i don't want to get bored because i think they have superb voice)
  • despite of trying hard to keep up of what is the latest stuff around me, i'm still (very) old fashioned.
  • i always think that i have problem with the portion of my body.. :/ i think my upper arms (biceps) are fat (read:big muscles?).. and with small round face, i think i looks funny.. do i? that is why i'm very careful when choosing my outfits.. but nothing seems right for me.. :(
  • i'm fussy when it comes to shoes (cos i'm old fashioned?) but when i like one, i tend to buy the (exactly) same pattern with different color or maybe the same color. same goes to my baju kurung.. don't believe me? ask wan iwani ;)
  • when i was little (like 7 or 8 years), i was always nervous about the exams result cos i was afraid i wouldn't get the 1st place in my class. hehehe.. i assured myself by throwing a chalk into a case and said "kalau masuk ni maksudnya dapat nombor 1".. Hahahaha.. if i missed the first trial, i'll say something like "ni main2 jak".. (so in denial) and if the chalk landed in the case i'll be very2 happy.. (waa.. did i really do that??) but i tell u guys, it works! why do you think i did it repeatedly for years if it didn't work??
  • i did not eat much rice when i was little (until i was sent to the boarding school). my every day menu was bread and kaya. but my fave was (and still is) roti tausa (roti inti kacang itam la.. hehe. i think it's chinese word.. tausa) that's all.. my dad had to force me to take rice for lunch at least an i will eat with tears.. tsk.. tsk.. so, this should explain why i was so skinny.. *sigh
  • do you know who is AHMAD SAMERIN? i know! i know! :D he was the winner of a tv program : more jutaria that offer 1 million ringgit for the winner in late 80's (if i'm not mistaken la..) it was a tv program exactly like roda impian which we have on astro. he solved the final puzzle using letters S,A,M,E,R,I,N (3 vocals, 4 consonants) which were letters in his name and won the 1 million ringgit.. what makes me remember his name? jeng jeng jeng.. at that time (when i was little girl, okay.. very little), i was super excited that he won and i thought he had a very lucky name so i vowed i'll name my son after him.. wait! it was a mistake, okay.. i was sooo naive. so don't blame me for breaking my vow.. (shoot me. i'm a freak)
  • when i was little, i was actively representing my school in speech competitions. i'll refuse to practice in front of teachers, friends and even my own family members. they thought i was shy to speak in public. NO! the reason i refused was i think it was a mandatory embarrassment to be witnessed by those who know me when i was delivering my speeches at my highest level of spirit. i'm more confident when talking in front of unfamiliar faces.. after all, who cares.. they don't know me.. Hahahaha..
  • i'm sorry lyn.. but i dislike cats.. i'm kinda afraid that they'll scratch me.. but i lurrrrve fish :) i wouldn't get scratched by them
  • i am minah jiwang (sape gelak2.. pc korang akan hang :) hehehehe) god, i am weird :0
10 is too much.. i better stop before i really believe that i am a freak. UUUuuu~~ scaryy~~ hehehe.. ;) hey, lyn.. thanks for tagging me.. this is so fun la.. :) i was laughing to tears.. hehehehe..

Sunday, March 09, 2008

my first vote :)

hye again.. ) just after few minutes 'decorating' my new baby blog.. here i am again.. fuh.. it wasn't easy to choose which template to represent myself.. i really love the thisaway rose template design used by lyn.. but applying to my page, i think the theme doesn't suit my character very well.. i want a design which is sooooo me + the sidebar on the left side.. i tried on son of moto, snapshot tequila and harbor. i love the placement of the columns but i don't like the colors very much.. so, i'm in between of the page layout and the color. so, i vote for the color over the layout.. hm.. :| okay.. that was just the into for the post.. ;) yesterday (saturday,08 march 2008) was the election day and to add on to my excitement was my first time to poll. every time the election day approaches, it's a must for every candidates and parties to pull stunts doing the campaign. I always wondered back then, why do they are wasting their time and money to do the mega campaign and persuade the citizens to vote for them? Cos from my point of view the voters had already have their fav candidates.. but i wad WRONG.. my mom insisted to go to the polling center when it's still early.. she even gave me the idea that she wanted to be the first person there when the gate opened.. arghh.. so lazy la.. since it was raining, it doubled my laziness... and thinking about congested parking area, i sweet-talked my dad to send us there (since my dad had to go to the office in the morn and polled in the evening). so, at about 0830, we were already at the polling area.. since this is my first time, i was quite unsure of what i should do.. thank god i've seen people polling in tv.. so, with my trusted instinct, i went to my polling line.. my polling center was at SMK Kudat. Saluran 5 and my series num was 2939 (hurray for me for remembering the details). So, they gave me 2 papers (one was for the parliament chair and one was for the DUN). They asked me to go to the half-covered desk. Standing there with pencil in my hand, i felt a bit confused. I was handed 2 papers. The first one with 2 candidates and the other one had about 8 candidates.. and none of them that i knew except for datuk rahim bakri who is the YB here. at the moment, i wasn't sure who i should vote for. and after fast-deep-thinking, i made up my mind and step out form the polling room.. Lega.. so, it seemed like i was wrong all this while when i said the campaign was just a waste and bla..bla..bla.. it is very important for candidates to campaign so 'freshies' like me have a clear view of the candidates. Anyway, fulfilling my responsibility as a malaysian makes me feel like a different person. i never give a second thought of who should rule the country and so on.. but last night, i loyally sat in front of the tv and surfing the net to for the polling result. i was so excited to know either the person that i voted for win or not. i waited until almost 5am to catch up with the results. i'd never felt so close to my country than i did last night. So.. that was my first polling experience :) i just hope i will never miss the elections in the future :) so, peace for now.. p/s : undi adalah rahsia

Monday, March 31, 2008

my routine 1..

uhuk2.. its 0715 in the bright morning.. i woke up this morning coughing like endlessly.. my throat hurt.. and i felt the pressure right up to my cerebellum when i cough hard.. i slept at about 3 last night doing all prep for today class only to my another row of stupidity i forgot that today the form 5 students still have their EXCEL exam. shit. i should have done the prep for form 4 class instead!! urgh.. fortunately i'm wearing new tudung so i cant afford banging my head to the wall.. *sigh* and double fortunately i didnt scold the students for being 15 minutes late which is 37% of the period at the first sight of their confuse faces for being called into the lab.. err... malu jugak.. isk isk.. T______________T today i am wearing the new baju kurung and diamoned tudung i bought at konvo fest in UTM last week. i usually avoid pink but this one has thicker color. ade ke warne2 pekat.. ala.. sort of in between pink and purple.. i always know that im a simple person with simple taste. usually i dont have much trouble styling the tudung cos i usually use the 'klip tudung' (that's what i called). it is something that used to be sooo popular back in 80's or 90's which makcik2 or cikgu cikgi styled their tudung into butterfly-like clip them.. you can find it in clip or ring design. anyway.. that's how i usually style my tudung not the butterfly knot la, just the knot in front of my tudung je..... like ponytail. hehehe.. i feel comfortable that way despite of my sis complains that i look soooo out dated.. and my fren, aishah always 'encourages' me to pin my tudung on both side of my shoulder. she said i look 'nicer' that way (???) so she means....... -___- i do pin like that sometimes!! but i dont feel free to move efficiently. ceewahh.. eh.. why do i rant about my tudung aa? ermm.. oh yes.. today tudung is the new one. with 'diamond'. double ceewah.. hehehe.. i spent about 30 minutes adjusting the position on my shoulder so i dont look funny and i feel comfortable but still i dont feel comfortable. the glittering diamonds make my tudung feel heavy. i feel like they are pulling my head to all direction and then my face expands some more. T_____T i usually go for kerawang instead of diamond but i was so gatal tu buy the diamonded tudung. serves me right. haha.. next time, diamoned or not, i just clip them. easy and convenient. urgh.. my next class will be on 0950. hungry la.. kita minum dulu :)
******
i'm so %&*%&$!!! i dismissed the form 5 students earlier cos they have the EXCEL exam and i carelessly didnt realize that i am the teacher who should distribute the exams paper... (o_O) WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yes.. i got bad cough today. maybe i cough to hard that some of my synapse blocked by the mucus.. the the impulse from my memory box cant reach my brain cells.. hurm.. it must be that.. whatever... duh.. better to continue on my work..
***
i'm home. at last and i feel like my head is almost explode with anger. how cud they leave the kitchen in mess like that????!!! i'm so sensitive when it comes to kitchen. misplacing things is ok. acceptable. but NOT spilling flour, unwashed dishes, oily cabinet.. arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sick of this! nobody at home so i have to do it all by myself. i'm not that lazy to clean the mess. but i hate it so much when i have to clean the mess for other. irresponsible! shit! i'm suppose to be much more relieve when i'm home and rest mentally since i'm so tired playing mental games at school but its the opposite. maybe next time i should stay longer at school so whoever cause the mess take responsibility to their own action. i'm really in a foul mood %@!$*@!@!!!%#@&*! ...

electromotive..

urgh.. i should be sleeping by now if not because of my own fault (or to be exact..my stupidity) i havent yet finished with tomorrow T&L material. darn! shit. i'm so hopeless. i cant even do my best in my own field. i know i can do it and i know very well that i can do mucho mucho better than what i did and am doing right now but i feel like 24hrs a day is NOT enough. no. no.. i'm not blaming the clock for loyally ticking the time and leaves the fools like me wishing the day to pass by and hoping there is a miracle somewhere after the 24th hour that the day is restarted. where do i did wrong? screw the grammar! yes. time management. discipline. urghhhh.. okay.. lets admit that i'm lacking of both. i list all my to-do but because im so 'later la' type of person, my workload piles up like gunung kinabalu. ok. enough. i'm wasting my time mumbling here. i'm not going to sleep until i'm satisfied with my own prep for tomorrow. ...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

i hope today is the worst day in my life cos if there's any other day that is worse than today then i dont think i could take tho blow anymore.. i really hope that i can express my grieve but i i just could not.. i feel so numb.. hoping i could go back to the past but i know even if i could, making a difference is not easy.. One cannot bring back the past or change the what has been Though we ought to learn from what we have done and seen And young people pine for lost love every day For life experience the price some have to pay. One cannot bring back the past or change what happened years ago And in hindsight we realize then we did not know That one door opens when another close But one cannot put an old head on younger shoulders I suppose. Francis Duggan

Sunday, March 16, 2008

school's break ends :(

hurm.. benci.. benci.. i only teach for less than 3 months (i havent even got my first pay) but now i'm starting to feel demotivated. easy to tell others to cheer themselves up but being in the shoes doesnt feel good at all.. urghhh.... what has gotten into me ah? sort of holiday-ends syndrome? if the syndrome ever exist.. I am super lazy!! and with dad is being away on seminar..who is going to drive me to school?? ala........ sis use the other car and there is no way she can send me to school. i just tooooooooo lazy to walk plus with the heavy-weight notebook and books, its torturing enough to burden myself to death. even worse, i havent prepared anything for T&L tomorrow.. plain jane. am i that lazy? welcome to my life. ...

poll closed

ok. yes. i'm chubby.. okay.. emm.. :| :( uwaaaa.... ...

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

i'm tagged!!

i was tagged by lyn about more than a week ago ;) so.. here you are :)

10 things about me that might (not) freak you out (so, please be prepared):

  • i'm a big fan of ramli sarip, ella and amy search but i never bought their album.. i'm their big fan simply because i think their voices are great & the reason of why i never bought their album is because i'm afraid i'll get bored (i don't want to get bored because i think they have superb voice)
  • despite of trying hard to keep up of what is the latest stuff around me, i'm still (very) old fashioned.
  • i always think that i have problem with the portion of my body.. :/ i think my upper arms (biceps) are fat (read:big muscles?).. and with small round face, i think i looks funny.. do i? that is why i'm very careful when choosing my outfits.. but nothing seems right for me.. :(
  • i'm fussy when it comes to shoes (cos i'm old fashioned?) but when i like one, i tend to buy the (exactly) same pattern with different color or maybe the same color. same goes to my baju kurung.. don't believe me? ask wan iwani ;)
  • when i was little (like 7 or 8 years), i was always nervous about the exams result cos i was afraid i wouldn't get the 1st place in my class. hehehe.. i assured myself by throwing a chalk into a case and said "kalau masuk ni maksudnya dapat nombor 1".. Hahahaha.. if i missed the first trial, i'll say something like "ni main2 jak".. (so in denial) and if the chalk landed in the case i'll be very2 happy.. (waa.. did i really do that??) but i tell u guys, it works! why do you think i did it repeatedly for years if it didn't work??
  • i did not eat much rice when i was little (until i was sent to the boarding school). my every day menu was bread and kaya. but my fave was (and still is) roti tausa (roti inti kacang itam la.. hehe. i think it's chinese word.. tausa) that's all.. my dad had to force me to take rice for lunch at least an i will eat with tears.. tsk.. tsk.. so, this should explain why i was so skinny.. *sigh
  • do you know who is AHMAD SAMERIN? i know! i know! :D he was the winner of a tv program : more jutaria that offer 1 million ringgit for the winner in late 80's (if i'm not mistaken la..) it was a tv program exactly like roda impian which we have on astro. he solved the final puzzle using letters S,A,M,E,R,I,N (3 vocals, 4 consonants) which were letters in his name and won the 1 million ringgit.. what makes me remember his name? jeng jeng jeng.. at that time (when i was little girl, okay.. very little), i was super excited that he won and i thought he had a very lucky name so i vowed i'll name my son after him.. wait! it was a mistake, okay.. i was sooo naive. so don't blame me for breaking my vow.. (shoot me. i'm a freak)
  • when i was little, i was actively representing my school in speech competitions. i'll refuse to practice in front of teachers, friends and even my own family members. they thought i was shy to speak in public. NO! the reason i refused was i think it was a mandatory embarrassment to be witnessed by those who know me when i was delivering my speeches at my highest level of spirit. i'm more confident when talking in front of unfamiliar faces.. after all, who cares.. they don't know me.. Hahahaha..
  • i'm sorry lyn.. but i dislike cats.. i'm kinda afraid that they'll scratch me.. but i lurrrrve fish :) i wouldn't get scratched by them
  • i am minah jiwang (sape gelak2.. pc korang akan hang :) hehehehe) god, i am weird :0
10 is too much.. i better stop before i really believe that i am a freak. UUUuuu~~ scaryy~~ hehehe.. ;) hey, lyn.. thanks for tagging me.. this is so fun la.. :) i was laughing to tears.. hehehehe..

Sunday, March 09, 2008

my first vote :)

hye again.. ) just after few minutes 'decorating' my new baby blog.. here i am again.. fuh.. it wasn't easy to choose which template to represent myself.. i really love the thisaway rose template design used by lyn.. but applying to my page, i think the theme doesn't suit my character very well.. i want a design which is sooooo me + the sidebar on the left side.. i tried on son of moto, snapshot tequila and harbor. i love the placement of the columns but i don't like the colors very much.. so, i'm in between of the page layout and the color. so, i vote for the color over the layout.. hm.. :| okay.. that was just the into for the post.. ;) yesterday (saturday,08 march 2008) was the election day and to add on to my excitement was my first time to poll. every time the election day approaches, it's a must for every candidates and parties to pull stunts doing the campaign. I always wondered back then, why do they are wasting their time and money to do the mega campaign and persuade the citizens to vote for them? Cos from my point of view the voters had already have their fav candidates.. but i wad WRONG.. my mom insisted to go to the polling center when it's still early.. she even gave me the idea that she wanted to be the first person there when the gate opened.. arghh.. so lazy la.. since it was raining, it doubled my laziness... and thinking about congested parking area, i sweet-talked my dad to send us there (since my dad had to go to the office in the morn and polled in the evening). so, at about 0830, we were already at the polling area.. since this is my first time, i was quite unsure of what i should do.. thank god i've seen people polling in tv.. so, with my trusted instinct, i went to my polling line.. my polling center was at SMK Kudat. Saluran 5 and my series num was 2939 (hurray for me for remembering the details). So, they gave me 2 papers (one was for the parliament chair and one was for the DUN). They asked me to go to the half-covered desk. Standing there with pencil in my hand, i felt a bit confused. I was handed 2 papers. The first one with 2 candidates and the other one had about 8 candidates.. and none of them that i knew except for datuk rahim bakri who is the YB here. at the moment, i wasn't sure who i should vote for. and after fast-deep-thinking, i made up my mind and step out form the polling room.. Lega.. so, it seemed like i was wrong all this while when i said the campaign was just a waste and bla..bla..bla.. it is very important for candidates to campaign so 'freshies' like me have a clear view of the candidates. Anyway, fulfilling my responsibility as a malaysian makes me feel like a different person. i never give a second thought of who should rule the country and so on.. but last night, i loyally sat in front of the tv and surfing the net to for the polling result. i was so excited to know either the person that i voted for win or not. i waited until almost 5am to catch up with the results. i'd never felt so close to my country than i did last night. So.. that was my first polling experience :) i just hope i will never miss the elections in the future :) so, peace for now.. p/s : undi adalah rahsia