lone ranger

today is kinda weird. not the day.. but me myself.. i'm all alone now. dad has seminar in KK. mum and other siblings went back to kampung early this morning. in fact earlier before i start my watching-tv-marathon. i stay because i need to submit my fail meja which has been pending for a good 2 MONTHS without any update when i'm supposed to update it EVERYDAY. initially i planned to drive to KK today (another reason i stay back) . actually i planned about it since last sunday. i need to see some people from UMS for my next year project and do some window shopping. ah.. not forgetting some fancy facial stuff i've promised to do with a friend plus fetching sis from the airport. luckily i haven't set any appointment with the people from UMS or else i'll drop the hint of bad impression. but.. i feel slightly down today. for a fairly good reason. ... in other word.. over think. i was invigilating the year-end MUET exam and i had a chance too peek articles in one of the papers. so, tho whole idea is a person (in my case : a woman) who thinks toooo much (maybe way too much) will suffer severe depression and anxiety — especially in women — and interferes with good problem-solving. as a matter of factly, i'm totally clueless. here the situation : we (or rather I) will have to think a lot to solve particular problem, right? but what will happen is my initial problem-solving thinking leads to overthinking and at the end the act will contribute to severe depression and anxiety and interferes with good problem-solving. so now, i have doubled my problems. it is like i'm moving in a circle chasing my own tail in search for my head. now there.. sounds familiar? i better stop before i start to overthink. ...