happy birhthday to me...

i'm enjoying the remaining few hours before midnight. year by year, people come and go. some of them stayed with us. they became our best friends. sharing our ups and down. laughter and tears. some people smile with satisfaction at the beginning of their new chapter of life. some people welcome their new chapter of life. some people are reluctant for the new chapter. some people don't even realize about the becoming of the new chapter. some are scared. some are eager. me? i cant translate myself. but somehow i have to admit that i'm nervous of thinking what awaits ahead of my new chapter. not that i'm not happy or being ungrateful but trails that i left behind keep remind me of how little i have done for people around me or myself. i have so little to offer yet so demanding. every begining of a new chapter, i hope to face them with the one whom i truly love. i just hope that they forget that its my birthday but somehow they miss me for no reason specifically on my birthday. happy birthday to me :)