monolouge in lab 1

... i am in lab now.. i just cant resist the urge to blog. just to put my mind at ease, i blog a bit la.. hehehe.. i'm waiting for my 0810am class.. i am so proud of myself because last night i managed to do what i was suppose to do *very2 proud face :)))* so today, i woke up with more positive vibrant than yesterday. i 'm going for the spp interview tomorrow. but havent prepared anything yet for the interview. if its about the current issue, maybe its ok la.. but if it comes to the ministers, YBs datuks.. and datins names.. uhuk2.. i'm so pathetic at recalling people's names.. but i dont succumb that easily.. i already printed out the list of the cabinet so taht i can take time remembering who's who.. hehehe.. so, today i'm going to fininsh up the form 5 physics syllabus so that i can start drilling my students with exam papers.. ngeh.. ngeh.. ngeh.. i do enjoy teaching as long as the students are okay.. what i meant by ok is in term of their behavior.. i really can tolerate no matter how much they said they dont understand whai i'm blabbing but i cant tolerate with students who do not do their work or simply come in late to the class.. as long as these two rules are obeyed.. they are in good term with me.. heh heh heh.. *devil* hehe.. one more ting i can tolerate is students who are sleepy.. oh dear.. i do understand them.. i know they dont mean it but its somehow a nature call.. and they were just powerless over thier biological function.. like i used to be.. hahahaha.. but i dont let them sleepy for too long.. i'll ambush them with questions then they will be refresed again.. hahaha.. dengki punya cekgu.. whatever it is.. i've found myself to enjoy my job day by day.. it seems like day by day i manage to follow the rythm :) wish me the brightest day forward :) :) :) ...

my hidden talent :)

... i've been trying to polish my domestic side yesterday and today.. simple recipe for a simple plain_jane :)

sweet sour fish :)

pudding (or is it dadih) cocktail milo pudding / dadih

*more update later :)

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updated :) i admit that i'm not very good in the kitchen. but still, i am still connected to my feminine side that i feel like doing something that will challenge my culinary skill :) usually i cook when my mom and dad wasn't around.. hehehe.. i still remember during ramadhan last year, i opened my mom's recipe book and i came acroos mee hailam. so, i went to the market to buy all the ingredient needed for the recipe. sad to say, the best comment i had was "ok la jugak".. T___T but i knew it wasn't as what mee hailam should be because my sis was teasing me by saying " ni mee hailam ka mee HAIRAN?" ok.. enough of humiliation.. but i dont care cos the mee HAIRAN left no trace of leftover. hahaha.. ... another story. aku mmg ade bad habit.. iaitu cepat marah. aku pun tak tau.. aku mmg mudah sgt melenting lebih-lebih lagi kalau aku tengah stress. aku bukan nak citer pasal aku cepat marah..tp pasal stress yang aku alami sejak jadik cekgu ini.. huhuhu~~~ dulu mase belajar aku xde la beria2 sgt nak keje walaupun biasenye org yang tgh sakit kepala nak exam akan berdoa utk keje cepat2.. sbb aku percaya yang manusia ni selalu rase dielah yg paling malang.. dan aku yakin yang kalau da keje lg banyak songeh.. lagi besar tanggungjawab.. kalau kuliah best.. kalau da stress2 ponteng aje.. janji x lebih 80%.. hahahaha.. kalau da tensen sgt blaja paling2 pun aku doa je cpt abis exam and cepat abis blaja tp xde plak doa cpt2 dpt keje sbb aku mmg sebenanye xde cite2.. (tp sekarang da ade cite2) huhu~~ cume melalui ujian personaliti dan kerjaya (cewaaahhh) aku mmg sesuai jadi cekgu.. dan mmg rezeki aku kat situ dan aku x menolak.. :) so, bile da jadi cekgu ni, dijadikan cerita mmg stressss.. lagi2 aku sebagai guru yg masih hijau mata memandang ;) maybe cekgu2 baru yang lain ok je kott.. aku je yg kecoh2.. tp aku xpeduli. aku nak kecoh2 jugak sebab ni blog aku.. hahahaha... aku bukan ape.. aku ingat sgt kate2 kawan aku dulu (mase die berkate2 ni aku x keje lagi).. die kate akaun akhirat dengan dunia mcm akaun dalam buku ledger. mesti seimbang.. kalau kite dibayar gaji untuk wat sesuatu keje, kalau kite x wat mengikut ape yg telah ditetapkan takut pendapatan yang kite dapat tuh jadi syubhah (aku rase cam ustazah plak ;) ) kalau da hasil tu meragukan.. nauzubillah.. sbb duit tu akan jadi darah daging.. mungkin kesan x nampak kat kite tp takutnye balance yg xcukup dalam ledger tuh dibalancekan dalam akaun anak cucu kite.. tu yg aku risau.. yess.. berkaitan dengan anak cucu pulak.. dari ms sekolah dulu lagi aku selalu terpikir akan anak cucu.. dalam konteks tanggungjawab la.. aku ingat lagi mase aku form 4, aku selalu pk dengan memotivasikan diri aku bahawa aku kene gak blaja sbb kalau aku jadi ntahpape lps ni, maknenye aku ni selfish sbb nnt kalau kau jd ntahpape aku pn akan kawin ngn org yg ntahpape dan kemuadiannye anak aku pn jadik ntahpape dan jailah aku keluarga ntahpape. sbb tu aku ni cerewet skit memilih pasangan hidup.. ceeewah.. hahahaha.. kononnye aku xleh selfish.. kene pilih yg agak2 ok nak jadik bapak kepade anak2 aku.. hahahah~~ ntahpape aku nih.. wallhualam.. :) ape yg aku da melalut ni.. dr kaunseling stress ke prinsip akaun dah masuk bab kekeluargaan plak.. hihihi.. memang becok.. cakap dalam hati pun becok.. hahaha.. so, ehem2.. berbalik ke pangkal jalan.. cm pagi tadi.. aku bangun dengan 1001 dialog dalam kepala otak aku.. mcm2.. terfikirkan baju yg x iron lagi, x sempat buat persediaan utk p&p hari ni, hadiah guru yang pindah x beli lagi, sijil PEKA sains budak2 form 5 x buat lagi, xsedia lagi utk interiew, folio x tande lagi, analisa kehadiran bulana tak buat lagi.. dan mcm2 lagi yg berlegar2 dalam otak aku. nak aje aku keluarkan otak aku dan tglkan otak aku tu br aku pegi mandi dengan tenang supaye aku aman sikit. nape jadik mcm tu? sebabnye sangat jelas.. semalam aku habiskan masa sampai pukul 11.30 surf internet.. bace blog kengkawan la, check friendster la, cari resipi baru la, dan mcm2 ade sampai akhirnya aku x siapkan ape yg ptt aku siapkan pd mase tuh. jadi nak dijadikan cerita aku pn pegi tdo dalam keadaan tak puas ati dengan diri aku sbb da menyelewengkan mase. kirenye mcm menyesal la ni.. dan satu hal yang paling penting dalam hidup aku ialah TIDUR YANG BERKUALITI. tanpa tidur siapalah aku.. hehe.. aku kadang2 mcm baby yang akan meragam kalau tido x cukup or x puas. thats it. so, kesimpulannya??? stress yg aku alami bukan disebabkan oleh kenakalan students kesayangan aku tuh.. bukan disebabkan oleh students aku yg x kenal mane tripod stand..yang mane boiling tube.. atau sebab baju lambat iron, atau RPH xbuat lagi.. semua stress yg aku alami adalah disebabkan oleh sikap aku sendiri yang sangat lemah dalam perancangan masa atau time manegement. itew die yg sebenarnya. TIME MANAGEMENT. contohnye sekarang.. jam lagi 6 minit pukul 8 so aku kene stop surf internet nih sebab aku dah sepatutnya start setelkan ape yg aku patut buat hari ini sebelum aku bermonolog sendiri subuh2 esok.. tp aku da lega. at least i know who i am :) ...

culinary skill :)

Tonight i'm in the mode of polishing my culinary skill.. ;) its been a while actually of me planning to do something with my hidden talent *wink* hehe..

Cuti cuti Malaysia :)

here the update :) I was in Kelantan on 15-18.. :) I was just stayed @ syg's family's home. It was my first visit as his fiancee *shy shy cat* hahaha.. But so sad, i didnt have chance to meet up with my gfs.. :( i only got chance to meet kak long (anie's sister) who was at her mother-in-law's home the whole week and pay visit to kak cik who just have her first baby boy :) and plus we met fakaruddin a.k.a badut on our way back to kl. :)

my syg surprise me with bouquet of roses :) tq dear :) i do heart flowersss.. who doesn't? ;) owh.. i should have put on lipstick.. i looked pale.. hehehe

since he had to go to work, i filled my time going to spa *shiney eyes* going to spa was my in my to-do list actually :)) school had been sooo hectic and tiring. i guess i need some kind of reward to myself. so i chose body massage, body scrub and milk bath. i wanted to do the facial as well but syg left the office earlier :( owh.. i should mention the spa where i went for the treatment. i went to Heritage Spa. the service was very good. i love the ambience in the treatment room and the gamelan music. it was very relaxing.. and the worker was very friendly and polite. quality that i count as a good service :) and the price was very very reasonable :)) value for money.. value for time :)) after we left the spa, we went to lowyat cause syg wanted to buy laptop for his sis. i always want a camera.. so since they were having a sale and promotion, i bought one for me :))) another reward for me. so now, i'm basically working on my photography skill :)) ehehhe.. clicks here.. clicks there.. ;p my sis said i'm so annoying with the new camera T__T booooo... hihihi.. then we went to his cik's home at bangi to shower and quick rest. we headed to kelantan the same night and only reach kelantan the next day.. soo tiring :(( (i was asleep almost the whole time.. hihihi) syg complaint that i didnt help much since i slept a lot.. hihihi.. i was tired, ok.. kk to kl is a long journey, what? heheheheh...

first photo taken with my new cam *proud face* (syg insisted that i should take his pic first.. hihi. still in his working attire)

the traffic was congested on our way back to bangi. so i use the time wisely to practice.. hehehe.

first try... :( second try.. :) practice makes perfect.. hehehe

no pics otw to kelantan since i slept almost of the time.. hehehe..

syg @ home in kelantan *reading seriously* kak long's baby boy :) ahmad badli shah :) we look happy, dont we? ;) waiting for paka :) paka in the house!!! heheh :) Kak cik's newborn baby boy :) so adorable.. notice the hidden talent in me?? hehehe..

here some more pics :)

syg rubbing his eyes ;)

an attempt to look cute T__T

yummy!! :))

big eater.. hahaha..

*hearts*

Happy Eid Mubarak :)

I have few events for this past 4-5 weeks since my last post :

1. Kem Sukan & Rekreasi @ Tinangol Homestay (8-10 August 2008)
2. Cuti-cuti Malaysia @ Kelantan (14-19 August 2008)
3. Merdeka Celebration @ school (29 August 2008)

Kem Sukan & Rekreasi @ Tinangol Homestay (8-10 August 2008)

Where do i start.. hmm.. the planning was good.. i mean we will have a very compact schedule.. water confident, kayaking, flying fox, abseiling and burung hantu. owh yes.. plus the LDK session. But it turend out to be...erm... not that compact. Practically NO activities for the first day. So the students killing their tonnes of free time by the goreng pisang game and othe games that i rather not join. Hehehe.. Well, i'm not going to comment about that since i had the chance to kayaking and abseiling AGAIN!!! Hahaha.. Greedy me.. Want to do it all.. Few students didn't have chance to do it due to insufficient time.. Don't blame me.. I was there just as guru pengiring what-so-ever and all activities were supposedly conducted by other teachers. Takkan la i nak jadik gila kuasa pulak kan.. *defensive* hehee..

Ling Yean & I chill out in the kayak *best...best..* hehehe.. Fyi, we were kayaking during the minum pagi time.. hehehe.. we didnt berebut with the students *defensive* hehe..

So, later after lunch, we went for abseiling. Luckily Ling Yean and I tumpang Cikgu Juining in his four-wheele drive or else we ended up walking for 45 minutes just to reach the spot for abseiling. Pity the students. If iwas up to me, I wouldn't pick that spot. It was too far from the camp site plus they only started the activities at 3.00p.m! Can u believe it?? That means we only have approximately 3 hours before dark and 45 minutes just to reach the abseiling spot...? Not added the time for the preparation yet... things like tying the abseiling special rope and all.. it ended with the students' dissatisfaction. Out of 42, only less then 20 were manage to abseil down. Enough of that..

trust me. we were actually lost. fuh.. at last.. i'm here!!! :) :) ling yean & i trying to look cool ;) what a beautiful feeling i had that moment :) i want to do it again.. ;) and this one? hehehe.. ling yean & i was on the way back from my cousin's home. We went there for shower (my cousin's house). There was singing performance organized by the ministry of information. So, we just stopped by to buy food and clicks few photo. Hehehe..

The next day was the closing ceremony. We headed back in the morning (after i insinst that we manage to clear the camp site just in 2 hours) *proud face* ahehehe..

so, here the last shot :)

I hope we can do better next time :)

to be con't later.. hehe.. ...

sentimental post~~~

WARNING!! this is a sentimental post you may loathe this post

yesterday (last nighe to be precise), i was in the mood for blogs browsing. then i came across this. it was in the http://farisian9600.blogspot.com/ i always know that i'm a sensitive girl. but i just dont know that when it comes to my dear ex-secondary school.. i become so weak at the heart.. i went to kelantan some time in 2007 and got a chance to visit the school on they way back from abe ijey's house it was not really a visit actually. we (anie and i) were just peeking from outside the school compound. and i think the guard was a bit suspicious with our presence. hehe.. well.. i always on the verge of shedding tears whenever i miss the school.. i am so clueless. why? of course i love my school but crying?? that's too much. isn't it? same thing happened last night when i watched the clip click here. my eyes produce few drops of tears. i am just so clueless. obviously there is something beyond logical explanation to my issue. as if unconsciusly, i'm deeply connected to my past but i just have no idea. my emotional expression was quite extreme for 'naughty' student that i used to be. one thing for sure and i know for sure: i am sensitive and sentimental.. but some times (or most of the time) i do not show it.. i really miss my friends.. *sigh*

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i was in the lab today and saw this OHP (overhead projector) that reminded me to cikgu ghazi. the OHP has not been used for years since teachers usually use the LCD projectors. but the lab assistant told me that the OHP is still can be used. so, being sentimental, i asked the lab assistant to clean the dust. i was obviously jovial today that my spirit level rises to the maximum. and i feel that using the OHP is more practical for showing the calculation isntead of the LCD projector. how i miss those old days.. :'(

the OHP with my notes on it. i took this pics after the class :))

this is an old stuff :)) so my students helped me to fix this part so that i could use it for them.. i'm happy to share my past with them..

hurm... life must go on :) memories remain.. :)) . . .